So...I've really hesitated in putting this out there in blog world. It's something that I consider so special and emotional I wasn't sure if I was ready to share it with the world...but Blair thought we probably should so one day we didn't throw everybody for a loop.
We've been trying to have a baby for a LONG time and the stars just haven't aligned yet...at least that's what the doctors tell us will have to happen. It's been the hardest, most emotional trial and the longest bridge to cross. There have been some real struggles along the way in understanding why things are the way they are...I still don't understand much of it. Someone said it's all about the faith...and I'm still learning that too. It's been a real struggle emotionally, spiritually, FINANCIALLY (holy cow!), etc. Our relationship really took some hits along the way and we really had to dig deep and pull each other out of our rock bottom moments...but we got a lot stronger along the way. It's amazing the things you learn about yourself and others.
I could write for pages about the details and the times I've had to pick myself up off the shower floor, all the horrible tests and my body looking like a pin cushion, all the crazy medical procedures we've tried.....but that's not on my mind today. So I'm excited to let you all know that we're getting ready to submit our ADOPTION papers. It took a long time to get to this point and to know that this was the right road for us right now and we're excited! We have the most amazing families and such supportive friends helping to guide us on the journey and we're so thankful for what we're learning along the way. Our story gets to be a little different and we're so grateful for that! We can't wait to appreciate every, single moment. The agency tells us they would "be shocked if we weren't placed with a baby in 2 to 3 years" (I said excuse me what...????) so we understand that it probably won't come quickly but we've found some peace in this decision so we're okay with waiting and letting whatever is meant to be happen.
Maybe you can keep your fingers crossed for us?
